This Rut is now. Now is always.

The void is from a lack of creation. I feed off others. A mix of laziness, disinterest, and loss of purpose has landed me into this rut. Not sure what this is, mostly because I'm always in a this. In retrospect I seem to always be in a rut. I need to start paying attention to what I like, what truly makes me happy, not just will be a safe option.